Birthday and Anniversary

This morning, I was woke up by a very excited 6 yr old girl who had to ask me... "Is is time for my birthday party yet?" I had to tell her that she would have to wait until 5:00 pm for that. So, every 30 minutes or so, she would ask the same question... "Is it 5:00 yet?" :)

I actually got her to take a nap this afternoon (right after lunch) for about 2 hours so, I got a break from the constant question. Finally, 5:00 arrived and R was literally bouncing. All the girls (and of course J) had a blast and after everyone had gone home, R kept saying "I had the best birthday party ever!" and "I love my birthday!".

Whenever she would say the last statement, I cringed inside a little. The simple reason (as most of you know) is that Donovan died in the early morning hours of her birthday. At 3:30 AM to be exact. R has never asked me when he died and I'm not about to tell her and sabotage her special day by tragedy. She already knows the how's and why's because she had already asked those questions and I was as honest (without tooo many details) as possible. I just dread the day when she does ask the when question.

The party in and of itself went very well. The only down side was when I saw K fighting back tears. Thankfully, R wasn't aware of any of this.

My hard time came yesterday morning, in the form of an e-mail that I received from Donovan's aunt (K's sister). I'm going to share with you what her email said...

I HAD A FRIEND VISIT THIS MORNING.

HE ARRIVED EARLY, SAT DOWN WITH ME, AND CHATTED FOR A WHILE ABOUT HOW THINGS IN MY LIFE WERE CURRENTLY GOING.

AFTER VERY CAREFULLY AND COMPASSIONATELY
LISTENING TO ALL THAT I HAD TO SAY, HE STOOD UP, WALKED OVER TO ME, LEANED OVER, AND GENTLY HELD ME FOR AWHILE.


THEN, AFTER REASSURING ME NOT TO WORRY, THAT EVERYTHING WOULD WORK OUT FOR ME AND BE JUST FINE, HE ASKED ME IF I KNEW OF ANYONE ELSE THAT COULD USE A VISIT FROM HIM.

I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU.

I GAVE HIM YOUR NAME AND HE KNEW WHERE YOU LIVED. HE GAVE ME ANOTHER REASSURING HUG, THANKED ME, AND I WALKED WITH HIM TO MY FRONT DOOR. HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS ON HIS WAY TO YOUR PLACE.

When He gets through talking to you, escort Him to the next stop. Please don't allow Him to sleep on your computer. The message He is carrying is very important.

I asked Him to bless you and yours with peace, happiness and abundance.

Say a prayer and then pass Him on to bless others as I sent Him on to bless you. Our assignment is to spread love, respect and kindness throughout the world.

Have a blessed day and touch somebody's life today as, hopefully, I have touched your life.

He's walking around the world via e-mail!!

Please pass it on so He can get there....


I cried hard after I read this...but it didn't last but a few minutes and I was fine the rest of the day. This morning, I felt a little heavy-hearted but no tears. So, I know that things are getting better for us and I know we are pretty much out of the tunnel (so to speak).

I just want to say a big thank you to those that took the time to help make my little sunshine's birthday so special (even if J did try to get to be the center of attention... Ha!). Also, thanks to everyone for the prayers, calls, messages, etc..today... It means more than you know...

More to follow.....